Mood: .....Name 12 moods at the top of your head.
Listening To: Sadly Nothing.
Watching: Inuyasha
Reading: Behemoth by Peter Watts

Everything is hitting me all at once...it sucks when your sister who you've never really known or gotten along with, who turned her back on your family long ago is now planning on staying in your house for probably the rest of her life. It sucks when she's supposed to be in Rehab.

It sucks when the most important person in your life is going in for surgery and you cant be there with him to comfort him or show them you care. It sucks when you feel like big moments that you're supposed to be experiencing with that person is not being shared with you....when you cant be there for a while to share his joy or sadness or discomfort.

It sucks when you're insane and after 3 years of officialy being healed by meds changes and for weeks you have to go on with this madness untill a doctor helps you....or when you feel so depressed and you have no idea why. It sucks when you know you cant stop it.

I have the biggest dreams and needs these days and I know I have to be patient... at 17 everyone would think that no one really knows what they want untill they are at a late age, but a different....a big connection you have between someone that cannot possibly be broken is unchanged by such thoughts. I know that if someone is in love, that is all they want. To be happy and to live with that person right? I know alot of people who take advantage of their relationships with the one they love. They fool around and break up over and over and just do the same things, fight, break up, get back together, have fun for a while and then lose hope in their feelings. We can have the people we love, most of us that go through so much pain with that person refuse to try again. I would GLADLY go through pain to recieve the greatest gift in the end. Love is the only reason to live, in my belief, that is the greatest gift that should never be taken for granted.
I just find it unfair that I, the only person I know who doesn't, is far away from the one I want to be with most and cannot take the chance to show that I am not taking him for granted.

It really sucks when all of this is coming at you at once -_-

What's on your mind?

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Garnet